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[awest1217]

Thanks for the thoughts...i am actually feeling worse. I feel like I have a fever, but it is not showing on the thermometer. My neck is sore, so is my throat and back. I am a little concerned because last Thursday an old friend passed away from flu, which turned into pneumonia and got worse. Then while her mom drove her to the hospital, she passed away in her mom's car. Then another 17 year old that worked with my church yesterday at our concession stand died last night. They think it was his heart, but they are not sure. I just don't want something serious to be wrong with me, but at hte same time I don't want to go to the doctor for no reason, especially with no fever or coughing.

Other news. I text H to ask to come to church because my little sister was singing and they were always close. I asked him not to text me back and either come or not. I hoped he would come, but expected he wouldn't, and of course he didn't, but the good thing is that it didn't get me down or bother me. Tomorrow is S's doctor's appointment. I will see H then, but I will still just be nice, positive, and upbeat around him. So I guess a good thing that him not coming did not bother me.