Can I save my marriage?

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Well the worst has happened. I went to the banquet last night. When I walked in the door, H was in the back corner table with this girl that has wanted him since grade 10 of high school. She is the "one" girl that has caused many arguments between us. She has always been very flirty with him right in front of me. Called him behind my back. This was all a few years ago but still. He dislikes her. He actually cannot stand her. He talks badly about her alll the time. Not many people have much respect for her as she is kind of crazy. So not a good start to my night. Even worse after being there for two hours he made no attempt to talk to me. He just sat at the table with her and her friend and his buddy. Then at ten oclock I ran into him and he said he was leaving cause he was tired. Really...that's funny. You ask me to come here, you don't talk to me, and then you leave at ten? And where is the chick? Who knows, probably waiting in the truck for him.

So having a few drinks in me, I did the worst possible thing. I asked him to come home with me. I told him the kids weren't there, just come home and we'll hang out. He denied saying he was tired.

So he left, and I cried. Some of my girlfriends were there to console me and some of the husbands must have saw cause at 3am he called me asking me why I was crying at his banquet. He said that some of the guys called him to tell him I was crying. And that he was calling to check up on me. Ya right, you were calling cause you felt bad. You felt guilty and needed to resolve that guilt so you could go back to sleep. Nice try.

So now I'm back at square one. I don't think DB is going to do anything for my marriage. My husband is in a different place right now. And I think I've just got to move on even though we've been making progress and baby steps everyday he proved it meant nothing last night. The guy even called me yesterday to ask me to come watch hockey. He told me he wanted me there. He called me his "wife" to my girlfriend. But that all means nothing. So good luck to everybody. I hope you all get through this and are successful. But I'm moving on. I've given up hope. Take care.