Thank you for the feedback. I know you are all right. I think I should stay away from the wine...

Getting some perspective this morning, you are right... this doesn't change what I am doing. Somedays I have to wonder if it is worth all of this pain.

Drop the rope. Yes.
Our R talk ended with me "agreeing" with H about how another man could definitely treat me better... which I could tell started to irk him. Maybe I need to let my actions make him wonder if I really am coming to that conclusion?
Is this kind of situation where I "go dark"? What exactly does that mean?