#66 Looking for Susnhine...

[AliSuddenly]

Wow too.. you have bought tears to my eyes, seriously.. hugs to you and WELL DONE!!

I let the wall down. I wasnt tough and cool, I was honest and he tried to shhhh me, and I refused and kept talking and crying, loud and dramatic I guess.

He put his arms around me and held me and listened till I stopped. And then I started asking him things. And he kpet saying it was a mistake, it was a damn mistake. And I told him a mistake is something you do once, or twice, was happened was a choice he kept making, her over our family and me.
He said he was wrong, wrong to believe he didnt love me, wrong to believe she was special. He told me she is a "nice" girl, when I asked, but she is not the one for me. He gave me answers about the pregnancy, who knew, many details that I wanted.

God thats amazing, well done for letting it all out, why shouldnt you? I'm SO glad he was there for you when you really needed him to be, that his focus was on you, that he answered your questions and was tender and loving and held you all night, how lovely. I also believe him.. it was a damn mistake and she's not you. I heard those words myself this weekend.

I suppose you know how lucky, fortunate, whatever you are to have got this.. to have him listen, hold you, let all the hurt out to the one that caused it, to get some answers and then to spend his birthday with him. I get that you dont know what will happen next, but I'm so glad you got this much at least.
Love you too xxx