New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

OK. I know I seem to be overly concerned about what my W may think. I am aware of it. I know it doesn't serve any purpose to always wonder other than speculating and hoping. I have a lot to understand about true DBing. I'm not there yet for sure.

How can I get my W to know or see that I made changes if she hardly talks to me? Can't help thinking about it. Can't help wondering what else I can do. I wish someone up there would engage her to think and think about her options. But I have no clue if someone is doing it. So I think about that often, and of course I have no answers.

But I am surprisingly doing OK after 16 months of limbo. How much longer...I'm not yet at the point where I want to give up and finish this on my terms. I am not there at all. I'm just thinking aloud and venting.

JR