Trent, I truely understand what you are saying about why should I stay in this M and that if I figure out the answers to all my questions then I will know what to do.
Bridge, The poster just hit me the wrong way that day and I have no desire not to come here for the advice that so many have already given me. I will keep coming here no matter who posts on my thread. That poster probably did not think that his post would have upset me. I do think that his posting has made me more aware of how others out there may think like my H when it comes to the bedroom and I may be just a different type of person with my views on bedroom fun between H and W.
MyH is on his way home. I am not excited about it. Actual dread it to be honest with you. We have been arguing about stuff that is so stupid it is almost funny. I keep thinking that if my girls were arguing about stupid stuff like this that I would tell them to quit and to hug and make up. I guess I am not in the mood to hug and make up at this point.
I have been thinking about leaving again. I noticed that whenI read the paper today, I was looking at for rent ads. I dont want to make any quick choices but something has to change. I can't live like this. I can't keep dreading when the H comes home. I can't keep sighing everytime that he calls and thinking 'here we go again'
On a good note. Even if my H is coming home, I have made plans to go horse back riding with friends tomorrow. It's suppose to be a beautiful day with the high of 72 and I think it may be the last good weekend that Iowa is going to get before the snow starts. I am definitly going to be in a saddle tomorrow by noon. Riding is a good thing for me. I forget most of my worries, troubles, issues, events, agendas, ect. I just relax. I need that sometimes. I will get a few hours of relaxing time before I have to get back to real life of mom, housewife, taxi, maintenance manager, wife, girl scout leader/volunteer, and (this week) trainee.
I am glad I have lots to do.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
