did you get apology? Remorse? Regret? Hesitation?

[hoosiermama]

hmmm. at the end of mediation, he said "I'll always love you." didn't believe it then, don't believe it now. he said it so that he could feel better about himself, period. it's been years and years since I felt anything like love from him. Eighteen months later, the divorce is entirely my fault in his eyes, altho he left me for an old girlfriend.