Just out of curiosity, before all of this happened, was your H a man who would say ILY frequently or was it in response to you then also?
If you can avoid saying it and perhaps find ways to show it, that might be helpful.
I might argue that hiss saying he was going to bed was a good night of sorts. Maybe not what you were looking for, but I'm really good at re-framing alot of things these days.
I've found various ways to celebrate the anniversary, this year I was thinking of working on one of my own "masterpieces". Perhaps a toast or two would help the process I do love art in all it's various forms and I tend to have a "unique" eye (translation: if I had money I'd be eclectic, since I don't the word "wierd" has drifted past my ears a couple of times ).
Ohh, "Wicked" huh? That should be great fun! I have seen any live performances since I got back from Las Vegas this summer. It must be showing around me somewhere, I'll have to look into it. Let me know what you and the girls think.
It is such a double edged sword, the missing him, but feeling relief at the reduction in stress.