Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

The evening with the W is over.

I let my D and her spend time downstairs. I worked upstairs, played some music, had a sing and enjoyed myself. Bought and built a new bookcase and moved my DVD's and books into it. Tidied the bedroom, cleaned the car, etc.

W wasn't in a great mood when she arrived. Don't know why. Asked the usual how was work, how's life etc. questions. Got the usual stock answers of 'fine' etc. So I left them to it.

When my W came in I heard my D talking to her from upstairs. My W asked if we were doing anything later, and my D said we were off to a bonfire and fireworks show in the next town, W asked who with, D said with one of daddy's friends and her daughter. That was the end of that.

Until later when my W asked if, according to my D, out of the blue, if we were going to the bonfire with 'friend A' (who she knows is just a female friend of mine) and my D said no. So my W thinks I am off to a bonfire with a female friend and her daughter who she doesn't know. Maybe it will make her think a little for a change, maybe not. Don't care. The good thing was she wasn't told anything. No details. We were actually going with friend A, but my D didn't know that.

Later my W asked me what software she needed for her laptop to burn songs onto CD (I own an IT business). I thought for a little and said that her friend X could tell her. She persisted so I told her that her laptop wasn't my responsibility. She said she never said it was and I got up and said 'you'll need to do it yourself' to which I got a huffy 'okay fine'. She was in a huff the rest of the visit. I continued to be upbeat and made sure she had a drink, gave her some more photos of my D that I had duplicates of etc. I didn't respond to her negative reactions and her short answers.

She also asked me for a copy of the letter my D gave me where she said she really missed my W. I am wary about this as I think she may use it to ask / demand / fight for contact with my D through Social Services. The way she asked just put me on edge, alarm bells rang and my gut and instinct said there was a motive.

Finally, she is back here on Wednesday and I asked her to babysit for me again so I could go to my dance class which she agreed to.

My first day, as far as I'm concerned, with limited contact went very well. I decided, however childish it may have been. to not help my wife with anything to do with her laptop (and I knew she would ask me at some point about it, her wireless, broadband etc.). These are things somebody would do for their friend or W - she is neither. I don't do those things any more for her. When she went in a huff I felt bad and I wanted to then help her but I kept with it.

I also continued to be upbeat, busy and generally very pleasant around her. As I said, I made sure she was comfortable, had drinks or something to eat etc. (although she didn't want anything).

I feel not too bad just now. It's the only day I can remember where afterwards I've felt strength and not felt like falling apart. It's making it easier to go the full NC / LRT route. I'm a long way off it but fingers crossed.