Hope and heartache

[motherof3]

It's my W's weekend with the kids and I even helped yesterday by printing out a fun event at a museum that we have a membership to -- I paid to renew it for all of us even though I'd moved out by the time it came due.

My H has this kids this weekend too. It's tough not having them here. I feel like I am missing out on something...missing out on some funny thing that S6 said, or S4 little grin, or D2's laughter.

I'm just no good with patience. I've read about Dia and Sandi and some of the other success stories and how it tooks months before they realized they wanted to give their M another chance.

Patience is not my strong suit either and I am only going on month 2 of separation. Still working on that detachment stuff too. Could you tell me how to find the stories about Dia and Sandi? I could use a little evidence of positive results.

It's so hard to trust in the path. I keep thinking about what she's doing. If she's happy. If she's even starting to miss me a little.

I know it's not easy, but try not to think about W. You need to concentrate on you. Find things to keep you busy. Find things that make you happy.

I'm doing pretty well in LRT. I have not called or texted for something other than kid stuff in more than a month.

Great job with the LRT. And I thought my 2 weeks was an accomplishment. Keep up the good work.

I felt like sending W a message... but I decided against it. I'll tell D10 how great the movie was when I see her on Sunday.

Good decision.