Hey guys.. Julia, I knew you would get that scenario and K, I had a feeling you would think, thats how it SHOULD be. I'm sorry, I read your posts on H and I am at a loss...
So I read all your posts and felt determined to just 'let it go...' then last night we were wathching a film and I unfortunately just started crying! I blurted out alot of stuff, how I used to cry driving home after EVERY time I saw him last year, how I recorded his voice on a dictaphone when he called me, just so I could hear his voice when I went to sleep, how I said goodnight every single day in my head, never got over him or stopped missing him etc etc.. he was holding me, when I stopped and looked up, he was crying more than me!!
He said some interesting things. One was that he feels he is "a horrible person" for what he put me through. Of course he isnt and I do recognise this is bad for him to hear. I explained I wasnt trying to hurt, or blame him and that I saw it all in the context of him being not well. Today he turned to me and said.. I love you.. you are my woman, my 'Mrs'. I said, but I'm not quite..he said, well you are to me, I regard you as my wife.
Shame he couldnt back that up with a damn M proposal, but hey ho !!
