Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

Thanks, Gardener. You *are* a great listener, as are many others on this board. I am blessed to have so many positive thoughts coming my way, especially when I am like this, so tired that I need to recover before attempting to move on.

Karen and GIMA, I am a chronic "guilty" personality. I have always put loads of guilt on myself when things aren't going well around me. I don't like to point the blame at others. I know now that it isn't necessary to place blame. That is rehashing the past. I can accept responsibility and attribute responsibility without having the play the blame game. It will be essential to moving forward with my boys without having bad feelings for their father.

So, the last few days and the ones to come until I feel some kind of renewed energy, I am just going to get some rest, as much as I can get while still keeping up my responsibilities, and then work on filling my buckets so I can start to get back to myself, the me that I enjoy spending time with. And then start recognizing what I need daily instead of letting myself get to this place of mental and physical exhaustion. I don't like it and refuse to let it become part of any cycle in my life.

Another lesson learned.

BIM