There was still a part of me that was unsure of my choice,(because I always second and third and forth guess any choice I make) and as I sat next to my little one as he was falling asleep, I was just talking to God...
Asking for nothing but basically just talking about the day and the doubt still nagging me...
Why can't I let the doubt go?
Why can't I just "be"?
I laid my head back on the pillow listening to some music, hoping for something from God to help ease the doubt...
The next song on the radio?
"Faith" by George Michael -
I sat up and just laughed, said to myself "You have got to be kidding me"...
Yes my beliefs have been tested, all of ours have however you hold onto your beliefs...
Don't let ANYONE get in there and change that...
Yes you will doubt, you will fear and you will worry but if you take the moment to just "be" you will have your answer.
And for the record, I am in it for the long haul ~ No matter what
Serenity, We don't know the road map, but God does. He just doesn't fill us in. (I think partly that might be because it is such a long and hard road that he doesn't want us to be discouraged.) The more I get out of the way and let God conduct this orchestra, the sweeter the music gets.
And bless your little boy's heart. What a sweet prayer for his Daddy.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
