My very own Saturday morning. I don't get many of these lately, and it feels good. H is gone on a volunteer business trip. I told anyone who asked about coming today not to come before 10am today.
H gave me a hug before he left, and sent me a midnight text. I responded a few hours later when I woke up to let the dogs out. It used to be when we were apart that our days would start and end with calls to each other. Maybe? this is a hint of those times. Idunno.
H says he is out of money, can't pay his bills. Well that's nothing new!! I verbalized to him again that he can't just pay someone when they call, he has to manage his debt and be smart about it. That's not happening yet. I don't know yet where it's all headed. I see gobs of people filing bankruptcy for much less than what I know H has racked up. The thing is I know H makes good money when he is 'in the mode'. I still don't trust him enough to jump in whole heartedly to help him, he keeps taking babysteps but hasn't shown too many signs of changing his poor habits or commiting his heart to the M.
Hmm, I just got an email from H, even though it was for business.
The farmers having been going full throttle in the harvest, finally! The weather has been cooperating. That means with the crops off the fields I get to pull out the manure spreader and get rid of the manure pile today! yeah, how many gals get excited about that!! ME!!!
I found this file I saved from a while ago. How true it still is - Believe In Yourself And in your dream though impossible things may seem, Someday, somehow you'll get through to the goal you have in view.
Mountains fall and seas divide before the one who in his stride Takes a hard road day by day sweeping obstacles away.
Believe in yourself and in your plan. Say not - I cannot but, I can. The prizes of life we fail to win, Because we doubt the power within.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
