Going straight forward...antlers 5th thread.

[Lll54]

"I have been wondering why I have always felt such intense emotions about everything? Why do I agonize over events that others just live with?"

Well put. This is the exact way I feel. Others on here are hitting me with 2x4's because of it. We do this to ourselves because we CHOOSE to. Others choose to just live with it. We don't. We haven't detached, we haven't dropped our expectations, we haven't let go in any sort of way. Until we do that we are going to live in agony and feel these intense emotions. I learned that tonight. Took me 6 weeks, but I did. I sometimes don't feel as strong as some people on here who have a much worse situations, but really I am as strong. I am just choosing not to be. I think you are too. We need to look at things differently and find a strength that comes from choice. We didn't choose the situation we're in, but we can choose how to go about the situation we're in now. It sucks. I know. But "you gotta do what you gotta do." The same thing I said to my H the day he left.