But... I've started slipping tonight. Hopefully not too much damage done and I've got my head straight again before I made things worse.
I waited til about an hour after H was supposed to be done work (according to what he said this a.m.) and had not heard anything from H all day. The issue re: S was really starting to bug me and I felt I needed to calmly address it. So I called. Of course, voicemail. Left a message. Nothing. An hour went by. Nothing. So I texted "call me". Nothing. Still nothing.
It's now been two hours. Nothing.
I went home to have supper with D13 before she went with a friend to a movie. S15 already gone to friend's house. So, am alone again... my now usual Friday night routine. All my friends are busy with their own families.
And, I started to feel the anxiety build... and grow... and it became almost panic. Couldn't seem to stop the thoughts... had a good cry and a few rants.
So, now I am here after a few deep breaths and trying to get back on track.
