Not sure what to do

[mscanlon]

You should go have a couple beers. You don't have to get trashed. Just take the edge off. Or head to a book store and get some more books to help you through... I have posted to others and will post to you as well:

I would start a journal so that every day, you can list things that you are thankful for, listing all the 180's you plan to do for yourself in the front and then daily the steps you have taken to follow through on those. Track your eating/exercise. All that stuff.

Maybe in the front of the notebook, create a "vision board" type collage (have you read or watched The Secret?) of all the things you want in your future - so that you are forced to look at it daily and focus positive thoughts and energy in that direction. Maybe a picture of your family happy, the home you want, some dollar signs for continued wealth, etc. Go to the bookstore and get yourself a nice Moleskin notebook that is only for you.

Stay strong and focused!!!