Thanks S4H, that is what I needed to hear. I think thats what was making me scared to try and move on. I was afraid it meant that I was giving up on the marriage and I am not ready to do that yet.
H came over today to pick up some more stuff and gave me a really nice hug. I wasn't really sure how I felt..a little sad, a little numb. It seems like what how we are now is so less stressed and more "friends".
Anyhow..going to take your advice and try to focus on myself as much as I can.
