Wow, Breakaway, that's a phrase I've never heard and . . . wow. I only had time for a quick google peak, but . . . wow.
Passive "good boy", mama's little man of the house. She was widowed when he was 4 and the weight of the world was on his shoulders from then on. There were 3 much older sibs almost grown, into drugs, and out of the house. It was all up to him to take care of his mother, who never remarried and never fully got on her feet again.
I'm going to get my own therapist, thanks for bringing it up. I need to get on that, because this is all tearing me apart. I've been working on self care for the last few weeks and it is so important. I made a list of 10 things I needed to do right away for me (mammogram, dentist appts I've put off, exercise class, etc.)but the therapist still needs to get done. Thank you.