I survived. I am in the best shape I have been in the last 15 years. I feel like a 25 year old. I have really worked on myself and taught myself personal goals. I have great friends and family. I have kept it dark as I can be. I do not initiate conversation. I take care of myself. I keep in contact with her immediate family. I keep in contact with our common friends. I need only myself to live my life. Well that and an extra blanket. Weight loss and Novemember make for some cold nights. If I had not done this. I would have hated my wife. I would have become completely bitter towards her. Instead. I have a little bit hidden away that I hold on to. That way. If the divorce is busted. And I decide that I want to start a new relationship with her. I have something to build on.
If she had stayed here and continued on with her abuse there would have been nothing to build on. It would have been hate and bitterness and tossing away 10 years of marriage ( good and bad ) and 3 good years of dating.
