Journaling, I have been doing so well this week... very proud of myself!
And, this afternoon I have been feeling the anxiety build again. Been trying to figure out why... I do NOT want to go there again! Been living in a state of anxiety for months and months. There is nothing specific I can think of that has triggered it. The only thing I can think of is this is the weekend. Weekends used to be great family time. Now, I never know what to expect and if my kids end up with plans with their friends (as teenagers usually do) I often end up alone now. I know... you are going to tell me to GAL. I am planning to try to do that. I need to find myself some new friends! lol Most of my friends are married with kids and they usually are busy with their families. I do have some ideas of things to do to GAL, whether or not anyone is available. It's just the loneliness I think... And, I get sad for the "old times". I know I can't go there. I know it. I have to fight this anxiety.
OK - just some self talk here: I am strong. I am amazing. I am fun! I will be ok no matter what H does, doesn't do, no matter what the weekend brings.
Ok, a few deep breaths, I think I am starting to feel better...
