I have been sort of just NOT trying to think about the D and my exH. I was depressed a couple of weeks ago and I just sort of didn't talk to anyone or write on this blog..... I felt like I just needed some time to focus.....nothing was helping....I was standing still.
Well, what I am learning is that each day is its own. And no matter how I decide to deal with my day, my problems with exH do not ever go away. What I am also learning is that with each day, the distance does get longer, but I am a little less emotional....a little less afraid...a little bit stronger.
I have today off...and I woke up thinking....what the heck have I been afraid of? Being alone....not being able to cope...what? I have no idea....I am afraid of all those things...except I have been thru all those things and am still standing. So afraid or not afraid...each day comes...and I can only try to live a better a life each day.
Yes I do hear from exH. He is going thru his own hell, I suppose. Who knows.....I've stopped wondering....cuz I can't change anything.
Besides that, my dad has had a set back and will be going back into surgery next wednesday....so hopefully they will get it all out and he will come out of this fighting. He has an amazing attitude and I am really feel grateful to be in his life.
So, life is ok....Thanks for thinking of me...You are in my thoughts and prayer always. I hope you are doing well.
