Looks like I have a lot of tough decisions to make... and I need to get my mind and emotions in the right frame... It will take a lot of praying that's for sure and seeking out God. Truth be told I'm a broken man, I'm a mess, and the pain of all this is more than I can bear... Some people say to take things day by day, but I have been doing good to take it hour by hour. It hasn't even been a full week since she dropped the bomb on me. And truthfully I know what's going on, but I don't think it's fully set in yet... No one said this would be easy, and I know I got a long road ahead of me - 1,000 miles and I've only moved an inch
I remember that feeling.
I also remember a day when an internal switch inside me flipped, something that finally registered how badly I was being treated and that my young children were witnessing this regularly (at the time they were 4 & 6) and it just wasn't right - my kids were going to repeat the same mistakes and go through the same pain and that made me angry and that's what you need to feel, you need to get past your own pain, you need to allow that protector inside you to feel how your children will feel if this happens to them, that feeling will make you angry and want to protect them and you will finally realize that the only way to protect them is to show them that you will protect yourself and not allow someone to use/abuse/violate you because that's what they will learn from you.
So my question is, when are you going to flip that switch inside you that says "enough is enough".
