No need for the spill my guts card. I have a journal for that. I will write in it, what I would have written in a card if things were "normal".
Going out with some guys for work - so not likely to dress up too much and definitely no dancing!
I told the guys to get me drunk enough to relax and be able to go home and lie next to me WAW - although I suspect she won't spend the night at home. I will not get drunk enough to say or do things I will regret.
I alredy planned to only give her a card if she gives me one first. I still think anything with "Anniverary" on it, is a bad idea.
I have finally stopped all R talk. Some talk regarding logistics of her move out, but only what is required. I am almost at the point of accepting that actual separation is the next phase and will be here in a matter of days.
I had a very tough day yesterday, and just seeing my WAW last night calmed me down. Soon, I won't have that, and I will deal with that when it comes. I do all I can to not let her know the pain I am in.
