I've got to find some way to get over this if its the last thing I do.
Read up on co-dependence.
"You must be the change you wish to see in the world." - Ghandi
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.