Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Just a journalizing 'rant', 'vent' or statement of mind for myself:

I certainly didn'y want to get involved with the "debate" that jacked Kat's thread But, sort of related.

I finally heard from 'the kids' (well only one) last night for the first time in well over a week. #:15 yesterday I get a call from a phone # with a prefix of the old town, I immediately think it's got to be the police with another of XW's cooked up complaints, but in turn it ended up being S12 calling from a phone at the library. He couldn't offer up a reason as to why and how he was using a private phone in a public library or any reason to have not called in over a week (hell it took me a second to recognize his ever changing voice).

This wreaks so much disregard from XW for any of us. She is clearly withholding her phone from them for him to take such a drastic measure. She does not comply with any part of a LEGAL agreement and appears adiment to drive a 90 mile wedge between myself an dour kids fairly soon.

Ugh, I don't want to see her tonight when I pick them up. I don't even want to know she's alive, PERIOD. She most definately will not comply with my request 2 weeks ago to furnish MY adoption papers of S12 and thus he will lose out on his life insurance policy unitl I can free the time to spend half a day downtown proving my validity of being his parent to the county.

I just loathe her soooo much right now and wish I had nothing to do with her. And I certainly wish she'd stop creating an even bigger wedge myself and kids that she created. I imagine it's going to be a very emotional weekend when they begin to relay some of the stories she's conjoured up now. Probably B/S like "why would you want to call your father? He never calls you...." Yeah, well every time I call, I get her in one of her ill prepared moods that does nothing but want to start over dead sh!t, fight and then I don't talk with them anyway as she puts on her "look how your wonderful father treats me, this is why I'm with OP" bullsnot.

On all other fronts, the clock is ticking down, my cousin and I trying to find ANY sort of extra income to keep the house a float. We briefly touched on Thanksgiving last night that she'd normally have at her house, pretty much cancelled and X-mas, that ought to be interesting.

Then, on even worse timing, driving into work the other day, I spotted that an apartment building I've had my eye on for some time in the next town over from my old, has apartments available, within my affordability, shares the school district where the kids are now and is right across the street from the commuter train taht would save me a ton of cash versus driving. PErfect friggen timing.