I guess MC went as well as can be expected. First time either of us have ever been in counseling. Alot of talk around where I behavior comes from (upbringing). How we need to address to I'm more opened up. Talked about the resentment. I broke down when the affair came up. I couldn't stop myself. W reached out and grabbed my hand and held it for awhile until towards the end of the session I let go and put my arm around her and she scooted over towards me and leaned up against me on the couch until the end. It was tough, but we both said we wanted to work through this when asked.
The irony is right now she has more walls than me and I'm the one more opened up. We talked about that a little too.
Anyway, lot of issues to get through. We drove there separately so she had to run and get D2 and I went and met her at home. When she got back we put D2 down for bed and then we just gave eachother a big hug and laid down and watched a little of the world series before going to bed. We were both pretty drained. We agreed that we both like our MC and we are going back next week.
We both have crazy long working days today so haven't talked to her besides a couple txts. I did go in and kiss her goodbye before I left since she was still in bed.
Interested to know where the next session will lead now that we've laid the foundation for the MC. I see hope but still a tough path ahead.
Me: 30 W: 29 D: 20 months M: 5 years T: 6.5 years ILYBNILWY and want to separate: 10/5/2009
