I never thought I would be here

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I just hope I can keep calm and have a clear head... and that I don't stumble on my words. I am the type of person where it sounded good in my mind, but the words come out a different way - I know it's time to break that for my own sake! I have so much pent up frustration and anger over this whole thing - I think I have just bottled up everything since the bomb and never really faced it - just swept it under the rug when it comes to my feelings. I need to pray that God give me strength beyond strength and clarity, A LOT of patience, and wisdom - I just want to explode! I want to break something but I am at work and I would hate to lose my job!! I think the sooner I can deal with what I am feeling and accept it for what is the better off I will be!