It is OK to feel however you feel. That is normal. My feelings follow my thoughts. I have learned to change my thoughts, which in turn changes my feelings, which in turn changes my behavior. It has taken hard work, but was worth it. I stay in the present as much I can. If I think about the past, it is to bring up good feelings, to change my current behavior.
I also believe that it is important to feel the victim. It is also very good to then let it go. We have a choice between living in a victim conscious or responsible conscious world. I am responsible for all my choices and the consequences of those choices. I feel I am making better choices now than before the bomb.
Just some ideas to think about.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
