Thats where Im heading Rocked, I spent a bit of time thinking about our conversation on mon eve, and a big penny really dropped! Ive copied below what I put in my email to my mate this afternoon!
"I kept going through what had been said Monday night before I ended up in tears, it was triggered by me saying something about loving him! He said how could I, I didn't know him, I didn't know what he wanted out of life, hell I didn't even know what he wanted for xmas, and that was heart breaking when I saw it from his point of view, at xmas all I had been was annoyed he hadn’t given me a xmas list and I had no idea what to buy! Then he said that I didn't even need him any more, and he reminded me of what I had said on our dinner date! That when he had his heart attack that I thought my world had ended when he nearly died, but being separated had shown me that him dying wouldn’t be the end of my world, now I had never said that to hurt him just to explain how I had changed and how I was no longer needy but wanted him! But OMG that must have hit home like nothing else! Yet how can he not want a needy wife but want to be needed. No wonder he said that he felt Monday night we had stepped forward some how! Perhaps we had both spoken and been heard by each other for the first time in months/years I really don’t know!"
I really hope that my radar is working correctly and hes not going to "pull my chain" as other wise pull back will be from me big time!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
