Serenity, you are obviously a woman of faith, which is why I shared those lyrics (and those thoughts) with you.
I have learned a LOT lately (altho I still have a long way to go) about prayer, and faith, and trusting God to REALLY help me in a meaningful way that's going to "stick." There have been so many times that I thought He wasn't listening to me, and not answering my prayers, and I would cry out to him -- sometimes literally, tears streaming down my face -- "WHY DON'T YOU CARE?? WHY WON'T YOU ANSWER THIS SIMPLE PRAYER??!"
What I've started to learn is that I can sometimes look back and see it would NOT have REALLY helped me, not in any lasting way at least, to have simply answered that one prayer of mine. More often, I think that God wants to DO A WORK in us, and in our families, and I mean in a real thorough, meaningful way.
IF we will let Him.
I have now prayed for forgiveness, embarrassed and ashamed, many times that I didn't trust Him, and have now THANKED Him for trying to use my bad situations (almost always of my own stupid/selfish making!), to bring about some GOOD in me, and in my family.
Not sure where all that came from just now, but I just felt compelled to share it with you.
