Not Me...Ever part 2

[ClingingToHope]

So many tough choices. Trent said up higher he will fight the divorce every step of the way. How do you do that exactly?

I was in Chicago two weeks ago visiting a friend. It was my best weekend of GALing by far. We talked to 4 a.m. and I told her I'm closing no doors in my life. If W wakes up and realizes she's making a mistake and is willing to work at the M, so am I.

If someone else comes along and the D is done then I may follow that path.

I felt so strong saying it.

But then I think about God's plan, which was spoken about earlier. Would I be giving up on his plan if I don't wait on W. That's such a big decision to make, to close all doors but one.

[TrentC]

So many tough choices. Trent said up higher he will fight the divorce every step of the way. How do you do that exactly?

I'll let you know when I figure it out...

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Serenity,

I am sitting here with such a THANKFUL heart that God was with you in such a personal way yesterday. Through your chaplain, your child, and your friends on here, you were NOT ALONE, and I truly believe that that "list" was from from God Himself, to you, simply because you ASKED him for help.

Wow, that song on the radio. That's amazing! I don't know if I ever shared this one with you, but it's gotten me thru some really tough times in my life. It's an awesome song, if you've never heard it -- I'm sure you can find it on YouTube.

Puppy




Higher Ways
Steven Curtis Chapman

Higher Ways (YouTube)

If I could only fly
I'd go up and look down from the sky
So I could see the bigger picture
And Lord if I could sit with You
At Your feet for an hour or two
I'm sure I'd ask too many questions
'Cause there's so much going on down here
That I must confess I just don't understand

BRIDGE
But I have prayed
And at your feet my whole life has been laid
So I wont worry I wont be afraid
'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways
Let the road ahead become unclear
I am Yours so what have I to fear
If my soul is resting on Your higher ways

CHORUS
Your higher ways teach me to trust You
Your higher ways are not like mine
Your higher ways are the ways of the Father
Hiding His children in His love

BRIDGE
So let it rain
And if my eyes grow dim with tears of pain
This hope I have will not be washed away
'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways

Someday I will fly and
Maybe then You will take me aside
And show me the bigger picture
But until I'm with You
I'll be here with a heart that is true
And a soul that's resting on
Your higher ways

[Serenity13]

(((Puppy)))

If I could thank you personally for your guidance, I would in a heartbeat.

I see you on the boards and I want to go behind all your posts and tell the people, to just listen...

I know when you are new here it is very hard and I just realized last night as a matter of fact that I fell into the "unique" category Robx posted about...

I thought my sitch was unique, a one of a kind if you will...

No matter what I was told, my sitch was different...

It took me almost 6 months before I realized it was almost the same as the others...

Semantics were different/yet the same...

I can give advice until my fingers fall off however what good is it if I can't even follow it myself?

So I woke up today with a different mental attitude...

I made the decision to look for the good in any circumstance I am faced with throughout my day...

At this moment my H is texting me about some mundane task he could actually do (yet wants me to drop everything to do it for him while I am at work and he is off today) and I am ok with ignoring it with a smile on my face

I thank you for the song ~ I love it already though never heard it before...

The lyrics are beautiful and I will copy it into my book

I have to share - Upon waking this morning my little one came upstairs while I was getting ready for work, says "Good Morning", climbs into my lap, laid his head on my shoulder and informed me God told him Daddy would be coming home...

Who am I to argue with that?

[tristan]

Serenity I am inspired by the faith you show. You are doing the right thing. My belief is Jesus sacrificed his life for everyones' sins. Thus, you do not need to sacrifice your life for the sins of your husband. Jesus did that for you. God wants you to seek peace and happiness for yourself and children. I think you are doing that to the best of your ability.

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Serenity I am inspired by the faith you show. You are doing the right thing. My belief is Jesus sacrificed his life for everyones' sins. Thus, you do not need to sacrifice your life for the sins of your husband. Jesus did that for you. God wants you to seek peace and happiness for yourself and children. I think you are doing that to the best of your ability.

That's a great way to look at it, Tristan -- I'd never thought of it before that way.

Thanks for that.

Puppy

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Serenity, you are obviously a woman of faith, which is why I shared those lyrics (and those thoughts) with you.

I have learned a LOT lately (altho I still have a long way to go) about prayer, and faith, and trusting God to REALLY help me in a meaningful way that's going to "stick." There have been so many times that I thought He wasn't listening to me, and not answering my prayers, and I would cry out to him -- sometimes literally, tears streaming down my face -- "WHY DON'T YOU CARE?? WHY WON'T YOU ANSWER THIS SIMPLE PRAYER??!"

What I've started to learn is that I can sometimes look back and see it would NOT have REALLY helped me, not in any lasting way at least, to have simply answered that one prayer of mine. More often, I think that God wants to DO A WORK in us, and in our families, and I mean in a real thorough, meaningful way.

IF we will let Him.

I have now prayed for forgiveness, embarrassed and ashamed, many times that I didn't trust Him, and have now THANKED Him for trying to use my bad situations (almost always of my own stupid/selfish making!), to bring about some GOOD in me, and in my family.

Not sure where all that came from just now, but I just felt compelled to share it with you.

In His love,

Puppy

[Serenity13]

Thus, you do not need to sacrifice your life for the sins of your husband. Jesus did that for you.

Tristan ~ I have never stopped to think about it but you hit the nail on the head with these words...You are totally correct and I need to remember this more then anything - Thank you my friend

Puppy ~

What I've started to learn is that I can sometimes look back and see it would NOT have REALLY helped me, not in any lasting way at least, to have simply answered that one prayer of mine. More often, I think that God wants to DO A WORK in us, and in our families, and I mean in a real thorough, meaningful way.

This is where I am right now...Yes it is a hard lesson to learn because as a woman/man we want things done right now...We don't want to wait for His Will...We want it on our terms, our time and now I am finally seeing that...This will be done with God's Will, in His Time and nothing will speed up that process.

I have now prayed for forgiveness, embarrassed and ashamed, many times that I didn't trust Him, and have now THANKED Him for trying to use my bad situations (almost always of my own stupid/selfish making!), to bring about some GOOD in me, and in my family.

My Pastor bless him has been trying to get this through to me from day one...Pray in Thanksgiving for the good as well as the bad...The good shows He is there, the bad draws you nearer to Him, so He can shine His light on you and you can see Him working through it all.

I am happy you shared (always) and I don't need to tell you where it came from because I think you already know

I am a very firm believer in the fact that God puts people in our lives for different reasons/at different seasons.

I once told Mac the following and I try to remember it everyday:

"God will send the right people to our life at the right time. We must first let the wrong people walk away. The wrong people will use our weaknesses to stay in our lives. If we don't let the wrong people walk away, we'll miss God's best."

The people here I believe are God's best...

Sent here for different reasons...

Think about it...

We are all basically going through almost the exact same thing, found ourselves losing it all, came upon either the book or the website, connected with one another to then draw strength, faith, empathy, compassion, encouragement, love and friendship and we are all strangers...

We share thoughts, fears, worries, doubts, things that some consider TMI, we laugh, we cry, we mourn, we rejoice...

We help one another out all without ever meeting...

If you don't believe in God, that right there should at least put a seed of doubt in your mind.

[Puppy Dog Tails]

I am a very firm believer in the fact that God puts people in our lives for different reasons/at different seasons.

I once told Mac the following and I try to remember it everyday:

"God will send the right people to our life at the right time. We must first let the wrong people walk away. The wrong people will use our weaknesses to stay in our lives. If we don't let the wrong people walk away, we'll miss God's best."

The people here I believe are God's best...

Sent here for different reasons...

Think about it...

We are all basically going through almost the exact same thing, found ourselves losing it all, came upon either the book or the website, connected with one another to then draw strength, faith, empathy, compassion, encouragement, love and friendship and we are all strangers...

We share thoughts, fears, worries, doubts, things that some consider TMI, we laugh, we cry, we mourn, we rejoice...

We help one another out all without ever meeting...

If you don't believe in God, that right there should at least put a seed of doubt in your mind.

Oh, Serenity, somebody needs to "sticky" that post. I'm keeping it in my archives. That is the best description I've seen yet for what we all do here.

It has been such a blessing to me, and I continue to be blessed, as I (hopefully) bless others. It's why God came up with the concept of a "body" of Christ. He WANTS us to all need each other, and to HAVE to work together, to get it all done!

AS a foot needs a heart to pump blood to it.

Puppy

[Serenity13]

Puppy ~

That means more to me then I could ever say...I am honored you would like my thoughts enough to archive it lol

While I fought you tooth and nail in the beginning, I see now (many moons later ) why you were put in my path and I thank God every night you didn't walk when I challenged you and disregarded your advice...

I could kick myself for not listening sooner however it just wasn't the time...

I am thankful I have now quieted my lips and I am more in tune with the advice I get here...

This may not turn out the way I want it to, however because of you and others like you, I will be the best person I can be...

I will hold my head up high knowing that if I died tomorrow and faced Jesus, He would be proud of the effort I gave towards my marriage and I did it with Grace and Dignity (98% of the time).