I miss you guys too!! Things should be slowing down for me as far as sports goes. We should be down to just basketball in a couple of weeks or so. I might be able to get on more from home!
I, actually,despite ex, am in a happy place. I am moving on with my life, and enjoying my kids and having my own life. The only thing bringing me down right now is dealing with ex.
We had this long drawn out conversation last night. It started out about Friday, then spiraled into the normal drama. He got very nasty and threw out some very nasty threats (not physical harm, but just really vindictive stuff). Then told me that I am a psycho B, who is worse than og, because I am smart????? uh okay.
He's mad cuz he thinks I am dating someone but I won't tell him for sure or who. Hello, why would I? Said that he was RESPECTFUL to me because he had his relationship out in the open and didn't try to hide it...... yeah, two weeks after we separated... that was SOOOOO respectful. I am DISRESPECTFUL because we are divorced, and I won't tell him all about my personal life. SoCo scratches head....
Then as I am telling him I can't talk to him anymore, loses it, cries, begs, and pleads, tells me how much he loves me and says he is doing the other because he can't cope and wants me back.... That's a great way to get me back,right?
Was just broken down sobbing to the point that even after he has been so nasty I just feel horrible listening to it. To hear a grown man so lost and confused and miserable is just heartbreaking. He's totally crazy and lost and just it is SO sad.
I keep asking him if he has started his counseling yet and he says no. I keep telling him he needs to get started.
Again, I can't make him get better, but I would hope if I was a trainwreck like that someone would make sure I got some help. Obviously it can't be me, so I hope someone else steps up, like his mom or someone.
I ask myself why I keep talking to him but it always starts out about normal business stuff.
He also insist on bringing me his couches, b/c mine are in bad shape and says he doesn't have a place to put them anyway.
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher
