Still maintaining the PMA, despite the fact that taking care of sick kids seems to be bringing my own symptoms back. I can manage that. I am still a FABULOUS, ATTRACTIVE woman! :-)
Wow, what an amazing transformation in you lately, Rocked!
I really wish you, FlowerGirlie, Hoosiermama, PearlHarbor and some others would visit some other women's threads, and give them some encouragement and maybe a swift kick in the "pity" ass every now and again! Seriously, I think you have a lot to offer. You DON'T have to be an experienced DB'er to be able to help others (ref: Trent C recently).
Puppy
Thanks Puppy! I don't really know what has helped this transformation take place... I just reached some kind of limit I guess. I started to really think about what I deserve and who I am and this is UNACCEPTABLE!
Maybe I will try to help out a bit elsewhere... I am very aware that my own transformation is new and fragile. I am fully expecting H to up the ante and try to push new buttons to get me back to where he was in control. Not gonna let it happen!
This morning H was "needy" - no other way to put it. His body language and the way he was acting is a pattern I now recognize has probably always existed in our marriage, which typically pushed my "I need to be needed" button. In the past I would have been extra loving and accomodating when he acts like that. This morning, I was friendly, cheerful but in a hurry to get out the door. I did do a little "teaser" though, which I think was very effective. In our life B.B. (before bomb) I used to wake him up with light "tickles" up and down his back and arms. It was a littel loving ritual we had that we both enjoyed. This a.m. I just let my hand lightly brush his bare arm in a similar way but it only lasted a brief second or two and then I had to go! H said, "do you have to go so soon?" lol And off I went with a cheery "Have a good day!"
Wow, it is amazing how empowered I feel by taking some of the control.
I just have to be on my toes to not get sucked in, cuz I know he'll try....