I went to an IC for quiet a while. My 12 step program offers me lots of support and advice. Don't get me wrong I am not perfect. I am trying to better myself.
As far as someone else I sometimes suspect that but you know she really doesn't go out much although she is a SAHM so I'm not sure.
The last 4 days events have been interesting.
I am doing no begging or crying. I have told her I am concentrating on nothing but moving right now. Only 3 weeks left this is a bit bad timing.
I have told her that when we move I paln on unpacking upstairs and living in the house we just bought. I plan on sleeping in the masterbedroom in my bed and she doesn't like that situation she can change it. This is her decision and she can move forward with that decision if she wants.
I also said that the move and new schools is more that stressfull on the kids and I have no intention of dropping another huge bomb on them anytime soon.
She is also off to see a mediator today. I have said I will have no dealings with mediators or lawyers until after we move. I do not have the time or energy we have to move.
This did start fight but I stood my ground. Later she said to me "if you want me to move downstairs at the new place I will". I said "I told you what I want, but if you want to move downstairs that is your choice". She got quiet angry about this an I just went down to the garage to pack.
Funny enough the next day (yesterday) she emailed me 2 or 3 times and phoned me 3 or 4 times I ignored all but one email. She asked if I was stressed and I said "I am stressed about the move but am excited and happy because I love that town / house".
Again we all seemed pretty happy that night at home. She even emailed me to say she was having a good night!?!?!?
Then things did go downhill. I went to a 12 step meeting. I just left walked out the door without saying goodbye or where I was going.
When I came home of course she asked where I was. I replied that I went out. She really pushed and said I am your wife and we are still married.
I told her you keep saying you are not going to be my wife so I don't understand why I need to tell you where I was. I stood my ground.
She asked me if I had talked to my sponsor lately and I said yes. She asked if I went to see him I said no he is on vacation but I emailed him. She asked what he said about the situation and I told her it's probably best not to talk about it because she won't like my answer. She pushed so I told her he said to file for divorce and custody of the children tomorrow.
She became very upset and started calling me a lot of not very nice names. I stayed cool. A bunch more useless discussion took place and we went to sleep. By the way we are sleeping in the same bed still (with our backs to each other).
I wake up in the middle of the night and she is petting my hair. WTF?!?!?! We both fall back asleep.
She called my work today to tell me about my daughter who is potty training asking to got pee and did. She also appologized about last night and was still talking D.
I called back a left a message for my daughter about how proud I was and said nothing about last night events.
Sorry this is so long again I am caught up on everything and will post often to keep things shorter.
Any comments or suggestions would be great. You need not be gentle I can take it.
