After session with counselor last night and brief talk with WAW, I have finally made the decision to completely remove focus from "active dbing".
Being realistic, there is very little hope of busting the second time around. Now, it's more about moving on with life as it is. That does not mean I have entirely given up hope, but may have finally let go of any hope of saving things in the near future.
I will most likely be spending less time here now, and will move over to the "separated" forum on December 1, when that becomes the case. My efforts won't end completely, but it's time to focus on things other than just trying to keep my WAW.
Thanks to all of you who really tried. I know I didn't listen and I know I did a crap job of dbing. But...I think this time, nothing would have helped. As even MWD says, some marriages just can't be saved. My wife had reached a point where she was 100% determined to (at the very least) separate and she has remained steadfast to that decision.
Thanks to the pros: Coach, RobX, Puppy. What you do for people you have never met is inspiring. You are truly good people.
