Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

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No problems Michelle! And Saffie, sorry, I meant highstreet Chemists didnt have it, I needed to go to a more specialist health store as its a bit obscure, being an aminoacid! No, its not a licensed drug, so you cant get it from the Pharmacist. I guess its classed as a foodstuff and not regulated, so whoever is reading - do alot of research and buy a reputable brand. And you definetly cant take it with ADs or SSSI's! Causes 'serotonin syndrome' being too much of it, which sounds like a good thing, but apparently it isnt!

Feel a bit funny today - its bonfire night (big deal to me)..2007, it came a few days after the bomb. He insisted we drove back home to tell EVERYONE it was over and drove me to my Mum's (to think he never even came in, after driving 250 miles and being SO close to my parents, beggars belief). Last year, he went alone with Helen. I found photos of her by the bonfire, wearing his wooley hat and a contented smile.

Eventhough its been going so well, I still struggle. I just emailed him to tell him I feel a wound today because of the past 2 years. He knows. I dont care occsassionally about his guilt. We spoke a bit last night and I said..but I went through so much..and he replied indignantly "What about what I went through!?". I was speechless at that!