Hey Kerry...here is our horoscope (from the same site)...incidentally K's husband is also a gemini!
You’ve been searching for the deeper meaning to your life. This is not something you often let on to people or those closest to you. But you are learning how important it is for you to be honest about your needs if you want any chance of having them met. Heartfelt, honest communication is the key. Let go of fears based on past failure and you can resurrect a long held dream. This will mean being willing to change your patterns and behavior. Old rules don’t apply anymore and your daily routine is changing rapidly too. No doubt this is the end of an old way of life, but can you truly go on the way you have been? Watch how you spend your time; be willing to take daily risks, consciously going a little further beyond your usual limits. Pour your energy into that which intrigues and challenges you to be innovative. There is little to fear and the rewards far outweigh any risks.
I bet you that oriental girl in the costume link you sent K could surely fulfill your needs and then some....but i digress.
R2C, after being separated for a year, my stbxH requested to reconcile. It was not a coincidence that I had just dropped the rope and fell in love with another man (a Prince). I decided to give it a try and started MC, sleep overs (no sex) etc. Things didnt improve and all along I felt something was off.
My darling stbxh, had never admitted there was another woman although I suspected a specific one since May 2007.
Fast forward to August 2009. After almost a year of stress and frustration I tell him that on August 25th, I will decide for MYSELF if I want to go on or not with that lukewarm R that was no M, no friendship, and far from what I wished for my life.
The day before I leave on vacation with the kids, Goddess AThina decided t wasmy time to find out the truth and my keylogger worked and I got access to his email account, his secret email account and OW's account.
I found out they had been seeing each other since August 2006!!!!! Of course that alone explained why our R was non existent for so long and it wasnt because I was a bitch as he was telling me.
I find out that she had an abortion, has met my son, had gone to trips with him, an endless list of lies was revealed, and... a lot of things were explained.
2009, he was going back and forth between us. He was having sex with her and that's why he never did with me. Their relationship was on and off for almost 1,5 years. 6 months after he moved out, the thrill was gone or at least fading... for him. As the emails showed she was desperate begging him to recapture the loving feelings they had...
When I find out, I go crazy. He shows remorse and stays away from me as I asked him to. Our friends and families find out the truth and he apologises to my parents.
I prepare the agreement and sent it to him and he stalls. When I ask and ask why, he comes back with a "I am relieved you know everything now, I couldnt live anymore with the lies, I couldnt tell you the truth either, she is gone, she now means nothing to me, I told her it is over, if we have ONE chance, please reconsider".
And to make a long story short, I have entered the pre-piecing stage. Together with me, anger and resentment entered too, hurt, disbelief, mistrust, pain...
That's where we are. We are trying to find ways to deal with what has happened and see where it will lead us. K
I think you are handling it well, though. It is good not to rush back into it...take your time and make sure.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
