Is this the end of my marriage?

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You are deceiving yourself. You should have stuck to the plan.

I didn't really have a plan. Just to keep contact between my W and my D.

pictures, etc. out of sight was so that you would stop acting like some love-sick high school boy and man-up and show how you had taken back the power in your life.....and start by making that "your" house instead of hers. But you just didn't have the b@lls for it and try to turn it all around and even get religious on us.

You're right. Hands up. I actually did have the b***s for it as I had done it for weeks. The problem was that I put my wedding ring back on and thought I should put the picture up too.

Are you saying remove both now?

And wasn't it one of your posts that you said something about "if it came to you having to use the LRT"........what or when do you think that would be? The time for the LRT is BEFORE the D....not afterward.

Possibly was me. The LRT scares me.

you.....and your in hog heaven! You are pitiful. Don't you know that she saw right through you and could see how "needy" you are? That does not appeal to a woman who lives with OM...who apparently had second thoughts about them living together. Maybe you should take a few hints from him!

You're right.

You don't have to try and convince us that you are not expecting anything. But just so you'll know, we are not as confused as you seem to be. You have set yourself up for a huge disappointment.

I actually wasn't expecting anything. But in higndsight I was needy as usual.

D, she wanted to have pictures of when she was a bride. But, she had no use whatsoever for that cake with the tradition attached..........(D.A.M.)

What is D.A.M.? I saw PDT mention it too but can't seem to find it.

I think my problem is the contact between me and her. If you look through my other posts before yesterday you will see I had a strength there and I did genuinely have that strength. That came from having no contact for over a week. That was good for me.

The problem is, when she appears or when she is due to appear the emotions all start to come flooding back again and again and I end up making a t*t of myself. I say something and try to justify it when in the cold light of day it's clear I am in a fog about it all.

I'm confused, tired, upset and emotional today. This is all from the 30 minutes or so contact from yesterday! That really is pathetic.

I gave my word I would keep contact going. I also said that contact would not be unsupervised. So I'm stuck between breaking my word and stopping contact or going through this each and every time.

I just don't know what to do.