Newly Separated and Heartbroken

[ALJ]

Today was a busy day. I took my three girls to their dentist appointment and then we had lunch at Burger King. Then we went home and finished up the older girls homework. They really love school and I hope they keep that attitude as they get older. Later in the evening the girls went to their hair appointment and I had some me time. I went to Wal-Mart (I could spend all day in that store) and went to see a girl friend whom I had not seen in some time.

The holidays are coming up and I have been thinking about how my H probably will be here at the house with us but it just won't be the same. I will just have to make the best of it and keep my emotions in check. I think I did a pretty good job of it last week when he was in town except for my major backslide. I don't plan to let that happen again.

I still think about him constantly but not as much as right after the bomb and I am trying to walk that fine line of how I should communicate with him. Unfortunately, I do get a little sad inside when I hear about my friends being in love and talking about spending the upcoming holidays with their spouses.
Why is it so hard for me to realize that I do have a lot to offer to that special someone that God has for me whether it be my WAH or not? Yep, its getting to be that time of year.