I don't think X wanted to be pursued when we first split. Now I don't really know. I wonder if X wants me to pursue and if I did would she respond in kind. Or if I wait for X to pursue, will she buck the "what every woman wants" mentatlity of to be pursued and take the initiative to try and get closer and make some amends in our Relationship.
It was tough being out of town when she told me she was expecting. I was not fully prepared for it and it may have taken me some time to fully absorb the news. I do love my D so much. She is a princess. Now I have two Ds. Wonderful girls. I try to be the best Dad I can be. It did have to be tough for her to be alone durning the time I was out and even when I returned home, after a couple of months I went back to the routine of being way too busy. Again, not spending enough time with her to make her feel special and that I care.
It is all about perception and I have learned it is so important to communicate. X recently tells me I only get my D bc I have to pay support. Many other crazy stuff she has said. Off the wall type stuff. That has been as recent as a few months back. Hopefully X has grown since then.
Not sure how X could think I could do anything but love my D. I spend so much time with her, I kiss D continuously when picking her up and dropping her off. We do so many things together. Hopefully she will see more and more how well we get along and how much I love on my D.
