Over the Shock and GALing 6

[Thinker]

Journaling:

Away on a business trip now for 3 days - 3 more until I get home. I am enjoying the separation as it is giving me a chance to think. I have been mostly dark - calling to talk to the boys every day, and a few logistical emails back and forth but not much. W has made a few minor attempts to reach out to me, but I am responding to her now-characteristic short notes with even shorter ones.

I have caught myself backsliding into reconciliation fantasies a couple of times over the past days. Each time I have to remind myself of how my W feels and how she has treated me and our R. That get's once more detached and back in touch with reality.

Trying not to think about the discussions that will take place when I get home. Every time I do so, I start trying to play them out, predict where they will go, etc. and that gets me no where.

Started to sit down and document my "new" plan to move ahead, but didn't get really far. The travel, all day meetings, and sleepless nights have worn me down.

Need to go to bed.