Yes, I can see the wisdom in Lotus' post. I know I am not doing well with boundaries either. I feel stronger today--a little--but I am still in so much pain I feel like my body is folding in on itself. I need to get a grip and be strong. I keep imagining the humiliation of his gf hugging his unsuspecting mother and family while my kids and I just sit there. I wish I was a better person and didnt care. I wish he still didnt make my heart skip a beat every time i get near him. I am working on stopping these thoughts but I need a few more 2 x4s to the head. Time will pass and the intensity of this will diminish as I accomodate to all the changes and get used to being alone. Within myself is a peace and place of calmness I need to find again. My daughter is flying in Fri am for funeral and wants her Dad to pick her up so she can talk to him. She is generally calm even when she is angry and maybe he will hear what she has to say with an open heart and mind and he will respond like Lotus' H.
