Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Not much interaction with her today. I am out of town. She had S call me this morning and she texted me to have a good day. That was nice.

I called to tell S good night this evening and talked to her long enough to ask how she was and tell her g'night too. I sent her a message about a TV show that she liked being on, but not much chatting.

Every time I have started to detach, we start to get closer and my little shell fades away. It's hard to be detached from someone who has slept with me, hugged me, kissed me, told me she loves me (yep, that came out of her mouth in a weird way a few days ago...kind of a believe it or not, I still LY kind of thing) and wishes me a good day.

Now I am in a hotel room kind of lonely. In the past I would have called her and we would have stayed on the phone for most of the evening. We'd call back and forth and hear about eachother's day.

I want that relationship again. I guess the question is, can I have it with her?