I totally agree with everything you tell me...I just don't get why I can't totally let go...I want to, but something in me just won't let go..I try to think of him as being deceased, I haven't even seen him since July..
It's just weird to me that our 30 years has just blown away with the wind..like he's been with OW for all those years and I'm the outsider now. And yes there is ALOT I would love to say to him but I'm coming here instead...I don't want to make it worse. I just want him out of my head. That is the part I'm having trouble with. I am GAL..and I'm having fun but he's always lurking around in my head..
I actually cried last night because I was lying in bed alone, and lonely...no one to talk to...that's the part I truly hate. I miss even that little bit we talked. It's just sad that's all...
Just came by to vent....I'll be okay...
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
