Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

I admire you, P.

Puppy

I'm not sure why PDT, but it does actually mean a lot coming from you.

I took everything out of the house that reminded me of my W as she had moved on. But what has that got to do with ME?

No. She has moved on. That is her decision. It was her choice to break our family apart for a man she hardly knew. It was her choice to leave me and my daughter. It was her choice not to fight for what we had. Putting everything away was a reaction to what she did.

I never left. I didn't want to break the marriage apart so why should *I* follow her example and ignore a fantastic marriage, love and happiness because she has? I have no control over her. I do have control over me.

This is about me. And what I am doing. I am proud of my marriage as I said. I want people to know that I am still married. Me. Nothing to do with her. I will not follow her examples. Her examples are flawed and from a place of instability and addiction to her OM. I will follow my own.

UCL (if it does exist) is to say to everyone - I am still committed to the vows I took and the marriage I had with the woman I love and I will stay that way as that is the person I am - FOR BETTER OR WORSE. I don't know if I am strong enough to do this but I am determined to find out.

Unless the ground changes in some way where it makes this difficult, I will keep going with this. This is my life and I will live it how I choose and not on reactions to what somebody else does, especially somebody who is not thinking clearly.

Wedding photo has gone back up again. I took it down as I was scared that she thought maybe I was using them to get her back or showing her that I haven't moved on. I have moved on, but that doesn't mean I have given up on my marriage. And it's something I no longer see as weak or something to be ashamed of. Standing up for what you want and believe in, in the face of this kind of onslaught of emotions, rumours, anger and hatred and continuing to stand up for it when it all seems like it's too much is somebody who has strength, commitment and UCL within them. That is the person I want to be and that is the kind of person I would want to be with.

Vent over.