W wants to separate

[notagoodlistener]

Updating. Last night was uneventful. We had gone back and forth while we are both at work during the day on small stuff via txt and a couple calls. I handled some house maintenance stuff and she thanked me. I also picked up D from the sitter after I got out so she didn't have to. By the time we both settled down after work we were beat. Watched a show together and then went to bed. Didn't really cuddle or anything. We briefly talked about the MC session and we both sort of agreed that out of all the talking we've done that it's doubtful anything that we haven't discussed will come out since we will be getting the MC up to speed. She said "unless you have something big you're going to drop on me" I said ya right, "or if you cheated another time too"...how about I twist that knife a little. It was fine. I was joking even though I am really hurt.

I told her last night I was supposed to run 8 early today and she asked if it was with this OW I run with quite a bit in the morning. Yup, it is. I've actually told her about our marriage issues and she's become a sympathetic ear to me and has been through separation and counseling before. W knows this because I've told her. Anyway, I wake up at 4:15 and hop up and go for my run. Nice run along the water with the sunrise coming up about halfway through. I vented a little to her and she shared some painful issues on her end as well. I think it made both of us feel better. Instead of coffee after, I wanted to go home and see if my D was up yet so I hopped in the car and rushed home after thanking her for the sympathetic ear.

I came home and D was still sleeping to my surprise. I went into the bedroom and talked to W for a bit and layed next to her while she asked me about my run. I put my arm around her as I told her the distance and time and all that small talk. Then I went to get ready for work. By the time I finished D was up watching cartoons so I sat with her while I ate breakfast which I never ever do at home but really enjoyed it. She was hugging me and patting me on the back while I was sitting near her eating. I really see that she loves me being there and notices any time we spend together at such a young age. It has just recently made a big impact on me and I want to always just be there when I can.

Then W started getting ready for work but couldn't find her sports bra. I said there was one in the wash so I through it in the dryer for her and she just paraded around topless for a half hour. I had a bunch of books and had printed the articles out on this site to read. She said I had a stack of self help books and I said yes but they are more help for our marriage too and not just me. I mentioned if she wanted some quick reads that I had the printouts from this site if she wanted but no big deal. She said yes I do. I put them on the table for her.

Then when I left I got a nice hug and couple of kisses. I saw my W again in that instance as she looked into my eyes and wrapped her arms around me. Of course she was topless still and freaking torturing me on purpose I'm sure. At one point I said don't you want to put a shirt on and she said nah. Damn that girl has my number. I can't believe how much I love her and never really realized it. Eh...anyhow, I left for work on a good note.

Also, she had given me some candy yesterday, which I always take but then complain that she is trying to make me fat. So I snuck in her car and put a bunch of her favorite candy on her seat but never mentioned it. I got the text about 40 minutes later when she realized on her way to the gym, "It's on, if you want a fat wife keep the candy coming", to which my only possible reply could have been, "payback is a biotch!"...I get "you just wait" back..whatever. Nice to have a little light hearted back and forth like that.

Let's see what the day brings. She's off of work and has D all day until our MC session. I'll count how many messages and texts I get but won't initiate...

Alright, I type to fast and end up writing too much....have to get some real work done now.