Is this the end of my marriage?

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Just another quick update that bothers me. As I said before, this isn't a great day as W is coming around tonight.

Anyway, going through some baskets here I discovered our wedding cake, or at least what was left of it. I'm not sure of the tradition in other parts of the world, but here we keep a part of the wedding cake and celebrate with it on the birth / christening of your first child. My W left this behind which is really upsetting.

It either means she will be coming back and so therefore doesn't need to take it, or as my gut thinks that part of her life is over now and she won't need it.

She did however try and take our wedding album (which I took back) and one of our (wall) wedding pictures before she left so I'm not sure why she would want to take our wedding pictures, the wedding album but not the cake. I'd imagine you'd either take all of it or none of it.

Trying again to just accept it for what it is but difficult with this one.

One small victory. I was at a friends which is directly across from her house. As I drove away I didn't look in her driveway for the OM's car as I had been having thoughts that maybe jhe had gone (I know I know, silly). Was able to control myself enough not to look. Felt good.

One other thing I have decided to do - wear my wedding ring again. This time on my middle finger and not my wedding finger.