Is this the end of my marriage?

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On the bright side, P, sometimes it can come around just as quickly.

I hope so PDT, I really hope so. My gut tells me otherwise though. She is out-DBing me and possibly out-GALing me. Then again this isn't a competition. I'm happy with what I am doing.

Just treat her with civility and grace, and as much forgiveness as you can, as these will all come back and work in your stead should there be a reconciliation in your future.
Puppy

That's my plan. Even if there is no reconcilliation, treating somebody like this makes you feel better than treating somebody like they have just cheated on you!

Having a bad day today. W is coming over tonight to babysit her step-D, at least she said she would but that was last week. One text and one voicemail have gone without response so if she doesn't come I wouldn't be hugely surprised.

I spoke to the owner of the local garage yesterday (in to get my tyre changed) and told him that if my W did come in that the bills should go to her new address in future. He couldn't believe we had separated as we were always so happy together. I had a bit of a rant with him about the situation and left.

He is not the first person to say that. I haven't yet spoke to anybody who saw it coming. I have heard through the grapevine that a few people said they did see it coming but I've not yet actually heard as to why they thought that.

It got me thinking again though. We were so happy. I mean blissfully happy. For 6 years of the 7 we were deeply in love. The last year wasn't great but it wasn't the worst year of my life. Again, reiterating old ground I just find it so difficult to understand how we got to where we were to where we are now so quickly, with so little love and with so much anger and hatred.

As I said in one of my posts above. 4 months ago yesterday we were making love and trying for a baby.

Even though this is a bad day, they are no where near as bad as they were. I just accept the situation rather than trying to figure it out as there are probably no answers. The situation is what it is.