Thanks GIMA and Deep. I do have a counsellor, although I am going to have to cut back to once or twice per month. But he's so great and we are working on the self esteem and being happy so it's worth it!
I love the Gucci/Robx-esque advice. I need that reminder. Yes, I have to be happy alone for me (and my S) primarily, but I do notice a shift in our R when I pull back and am focussing on me. I guess it helps to show I'm ok either way. That's a bonus.
I did resist all the needy behavior tonight. Wanted to call H but cought myself that I was making up excuses to do so and it was panic-based. Practiced DB's "stop sign" with my negative thoughts. It was a challenge. I was way down today, but I'm feeling more stable right now. Tomorrow will be a little better, I'm sure.
